Life isn't always fun and games over here in SE land. I remember one time in 10th grade we had to introduce ourselves using some form of alliteration before our first name. Example "Happy Hannah". I think you get it. Well, my first inclination was to introduce myself as "Cynical Sarah" (not the same letter, but the same sound). Sad as it may be- I'm affraid this is how I live most of the time.
I'm very quick to judge, rarely get over a grudge, and always find the worst in situations. Can you say Oscar the Grouch? I think so. Converseley, Mr. SE is the exact opposite. He's sunny side up, glass half full, smiling through life. Sometimes his unrelenting optimism is a source of annoyance for me- but lately I've had a change of heart. It's not fun to be grumpy.
Some things have happened during our engagement that have been less than enjoyable, and have caused me lots of undue stress at a time when my life should be all rainbows and unicorns. Maybe I'll be able to talk about this sometime in the future, but for now I'll withold. That being said, I let some of these small things dictate my overall mood in life, and I feel like the past 9 months of my engagement have been shrouded in an unpleasant cloud.
The best part of this situation is that there's 2 months left until our wedding. Two months left that I can change my outlook, to benefit the long marriage that Mr. SE and I have ahead of us. We had a speaker come into work on Monday and he said some really insightful things. His topic of discussion: Stinkin' Thinkin'. His main point was that we all talk to ourselves on a conscious or unconscious basis throughout the day, and whether we engage in positive self-talk or negative self-talk will have a huge impact on how we go through life. From now on, I've decided to try incredibly hard to engage myself in positive self-talk. Is it going to happen overnight? No. But for the sake of my personal health, and relationships, it's something that I need to commit myself to.
Have you ever had an ah-ha moment like this? I'd love to get some inspiration from readers who have made a conscious choice like this? I need all the help I can get!
